Akhir Kehidupan Mahasiswa

Ingatkah kau, titik hitam yang kita nikmati bersama…..

Terasa gelap namun menyenangkan…..

Saat itu aku merasa "hidup" untuk pertama kalinya…..

Ingatkah kau, sinar putih yang kutinggalkan untukmu?…..

Terasa terang dan tenang, seakan akhir dari terowongan…..

Saat itu aku merasa "hidup" untuk pertama kalinya…..

Ingatkah kau, lubang hitam yang kautinggalkan?….

Gelap dan menyerap segala kekuatan…..

Saat itu aku kembali ke diriku yang pertama….

MATI! MATI! MATI! MATI! MATI! MATI!

Saat itu aku bertanya…..

Mengapa aku hidup jika untuk mati…..

Mengapa aku berpindah tempat jika untuk kembali…..

Mengapa aku terbang hanya untuk terjatuh lagi….

Kala itu bisikan itu datang kepadaku…..

So you will learn to fall….and stand up….

And so you live….to understand death….

And to understand how deadly a distance could be….

PS:

What is over are over….

What is taken cannot be returned….

Dan sesuatu yang kau mulai…..Hanya kau yang bisa menghentikannya….

Don’t ask me to stop while you are pushing the gas pedal to the floor….

Still…..I understand what you don’t….

I see what cannot be seen….

You are best at lie…..but you are terrible in pretending….

Stop pretending…..Don’t say you’ve forgive me when you don’t….

Stop pretending….Don’t be like him….

One day you’ll understand….

And see what i see….

I know you best….

PS2:

Time could never cure….

They can only tell…..

1.00AM

I used to kill myself…..

Paid the money to kept them shut….

Paid the money to kept me free….

Away from the cops…..

I used to fuck someone….

Paid the money to kept them happy…..

Paid the money to fill my cups….

Away from the cops…..

My friends used to said to me…..

I hate the law in this country…..

I said don’t hate it….live it…..

So i show him the aces of life….

The money…..

But green always turned to yellow…..

And yellow turned to brown…..

So i turned into nothingness as it fades….

And the glimmering sky has gone away….

So i kept myself shut….

Away from the cops….

Away from anybody….

I said to myself….

Don’t hate it….Live it….

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