Akhir Kehidupan Mahasiswa

After I went rage for myself….After a few little tears I shed for her….And the stupid little things she had done….And then fill obsessed to a jerk….

I went to sleep

Only later to found out in the morning that my hands trembling…..I said to myself, "Oh my god! MY head won’t shut down on me"……It thinks to much….My hands trembling, I can’t feel the tip of my fingers….So I seek tranquility in ones words….Yes, GOD!….

So I drink my ON pills (it’s just an omega 3 pills)…And then starting searching for every literature in my family books (trust me it’s a HUUUGE collection) about magic….

I need to know that they will be punished….

Evil will be vanquished by good….

At least that could restore peace in my head….

For now…

I have found simple words….in one books that then I’d try to find in e-quran on the website…

"and a wizard shall not be successful to whatever point (of skill) he may attain" Thoha:69

Tapi justru sebuah penemuan malah membuat gue semakin gak tenang…..Katanya tukang sihir gak bakalan sukses (menang) tapi dalam banyak kasus mereka menang….Okay kasus kecil yang gue gak tau the big case-nya apa….But winning is winning…..You can’t just say they are winning for losing….Only kids would believe that crap…In this world, what is success is considered win….

And this time I don’t like what I’ve found….It was like a guarantee for human being to be always the winner if they met wizardry….But lots of other human losing something because of wizardry….And god said,

"They learned from them the means to sow discord between man and wife. But they could not thus harm anyone except by Allah’s permission." Albaqoroh : 102

I was like, okay so GOD didn’t protect human….human must protect THEMSELVES….And every wrong doing that has been done to you is created by GOD as well as the right doing that has been done to you….

The more I seek it’s just the more I see that basically, GOD couldn’t do anything….Can Not Do anything to protect the one I loved…To protect the future person that I might love….Not in the past and not in the future GOD could protect them….

PS:

Just a thought after the storm…..

For my friends, my beloved one, my grandfater and my father that has been casted by evil…..

That reap a death, a betrayal, an illness, and a regret…..And sowing revenge, hatred and murder within me…..

Call me dangerous if you like….But I still wanted to be cared with cautions that I might exploding….

PS2:

I am prepared for this….

And maybe god prepared me for this….

But the one that wins….

Is the last person standing….

Not the one that quickly passed…

Even if he have being terribly rich….

I learnt my lesson…

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